Alone

i hate being lonely, being alone and nobody care to me. but sometimes i realize being alone is the best choice. because when you alone you dont have to think bout another person who's sitting next to you or walking behind or in front of you. you dont have to think whether you hurt their heart or not with ur words. ya, sometimes being alone is the best thing in life. S O M E T I M E S.

Emptiness

pensi has left my second years of high school has gone and it feels empty inside have nothing to do with ur life. im just not ready enauf to face the third grade of school. im not ready yet to start to manage my school stuff again. im not ready yet with the national exam and collage things. i still want to hang out, have fun, doing something crazy. i want my time back i want everything which has left back to me. i miss thinking how pensi will be i miss thinking how to make sure that everything will be okay along the Day (re: pensi) i miss being a lil girl who will always be guarded by my older schoolmates i miss become hectic and panic when evertyhing just didnt work in the right way. it just empty inside. i have no body to be liked to be crushed on even to be loved. i have no passion in my life for this time. i'm missing someone who never exist. i'm missing something that i always think through this years. everything just so damn empty inside, and its perfectly sucks.

Beautiful and Me

people said :

"You're beautiful on your own way. Because God makes no mistake."

well for me "im pretty sure God makes no mistake because He is The God, it just never crossed my mind that im beautiful. im not beautiful and will never be. im not beautiful in my own way cause i even have not any ways to make my self beautiful." thats the truth is