my first post is bout fuckin asshole thing that called broken heart

its already 0:37 am here. i cannot sleep or actually trying to not sleep earlier. bcause i hv a plane to thailand on 11 am tomorrow. and i may take more than an hour to get there. and i hv a plan to just sleep on plane and when i opened my eyes taraa, you were in thailand. k lets catch the point. honestly im in love (and broken heart) now w/ a guy at my school he is gorgeous. and i call him "an extraordinary bad boy" bcause he's truly extraordinary and unfortunately a bad boy, even most of my friend doesnt like him. he is a year older than me, he can do beat box, rap, he has good english both in bad or good words. we hv common on music and opinion bout life. he is a cute and kind one. o ya he is a glasses user tho, jus like me. and for me he looks like a harry potter (not dan radcliffe) when harry came for the first time to hogwarts. he is adequate not only on music but also draw, paint and sports. but ya he jus tho gorgeous to b mine. i just knew and talked to him at my school's art music and dance event, a week ago. at that time i didnt see him texting w/ anyone (we read it his girlfriend) so AT THAT TIME i think he doesnt has a girlfriend. but the fact i got him has a beautiful, smart and slim girlfriend. and they already been a couple since 15 MONTHS ago, and thats H.U.R.T. k maybe its a bit too much but ya that is the fact that i hv to accept. that sucks thing makes me asked, WHY I ALWAYS FELL IN LOVE W/ SOMEONE WHO ALREADY HV A GIRLFRIEND. ya i know thats sucks. thats why i asked to my self. but as usual i cant answer it. so bcause im too sick to think clearly now i hv a dirty hurt brilliant plan. im going to go to thailand tomorrow morning. when i already being there i wanna take down the burden on my shoulder and my heart. i will leave them in thailand and never took them back to indonesia. and i will carve his name on every white sands beach there and will never carve his name on any beaches here. bcause im sick enauf with all of these thing.